I know I haven’t blogged much lately, and it’s not because I don’t have much to say – on the contrary, I could regale you with tales of L puking down my shirt 5 minutes before I had to walk out the door this morning for work, or how I had a 102 degree fever on Friday with some sort of virus/infection from hell….or I could choose to be positive and tell you just how adorable L was last night when we were feeding her before bed.
Instead, however, I’ve let my blog gather dust and sit in silence for one reason: I’m not sure how to blog about my life anymore. You see, my life now includes another life – one that weighs roughly 13.5 pounds and is quite ticklish on the bottoms of her feet. And when I think about blogging about her or our life together with hubs as a family, I stop myself. I’m not sure how much of L’s life I want on the internet.
I’ve gone back and made my swaddle video private. I am afraid to type her full name on my blog because I don’t want her to be “Google-able.” I’ve only posted a few pictures of her to Twitter since she’s been born. I’m not sure what I’m afraid of, really…but I do know that when I read blogs where the author asks their readers to “please do not post any pictures of my baby to Pinterest!” it makes me feel sick to my stomach. The thought of people pinning and re-pinning pictures of my baby alongside the latest crock pot mac ‘n cheese recipe? No thank you. (Admittedly, the pictures that I would be posting wouldn’t be Pinterest-worthy anyway, but people pin some crazy things.)
Perhaps it’s my mama bear instinct to protect her from people. Perhaps it’s me grappling with something I have been since pregnancy – how much sharing is too much sharing? On one hand, I love the sense of community that I’ve gained from blogging, and truly value the friendships I’ve made from blogging. On the other hand, anyone in the entire world can read this blog and look at pictures of me and my family and my baby….and that makes me feel a little weirded out.
Do I try to continue blogging without sharing pictures? (boring.) Do I make my blog private? (kind of a pain.) Do I start blogging at a different address as an anonymous blogger? (ugh.) Do I just suck it up, watermark my pictures, and try not worry about the random strangers on the internet or what L will think when she is old enough to realize that I’ve blogged her childhood? (I’m not sure.) Since I know I have an audience that includes mamas, mamas-to-be, and bloggers….what say you? How are you handling being a mother and a blogger, or maintaining a sense of privacy as a blogger?